November 21, 2008

With deep sadness I announce that I can not produce new publications or "Poetography Prints",
due to people invading my computers and interfering with my work and wellbeing.
I'm at a painful stand-still with my work! But please let me know if you are interested in it.

If you have sent a snail mail order,
please accept my apologies for a delay which may last up to a few months.

Since the continuation my work has been prevented, at through this time, I am taking a long break from it and am re-evaluating every aspect of it.
But I am already 100% certain that I will not continue my work in the same way, because I can NOT continue subjecting myself to people who chose
to let their jealousy or darkness behave in such cruel, intrusive, hurtful, and even psychopathic ways, as I have been experiencing.

The Portsmouth issue of Sharon's Bud was printed on September 11th, 2008 and has been distributed, with the exception of about
500 issues which were taken by a distributor who'd extended what seemed to be a kind offer to "help",  just before disappearing with them!!!
I have left messages for him to return them, if he is not REALLY distributing them, but he does not return my calls. I hope he is OK, but I
wonder if he is part of the group that has been driving against my work and had chosen to act in dark, intrusive ways, which included
breaking into my truck, putting mice in my truck, moving my personal items, stalking me, invading my computers and repeatedly altering and
erasing the Portsmouth issue of "Sharon's Bud" as I struggled to complete it and meet my deadline. . .etc.!!! I'd hoped to place a pdf of 
this issue of "Sharon's Bud" here on this web site, but I do not have the energy, time or equipment to turn it into all that it was meant to be,
at this time!  I feel sad that this has happened.  Actually, I feel cut to the core!!! I feel  deeply hurt and violated!  

As I aimed to make the Portsmouth area my home base, I began to see that I was going to have a difficult time when the business editor
at Sea Coast Media Group, intentionally delayed my press release at a crucial time and then blatantly degraded me and my work while
 demanding that I re-write my press release and remove the part where I'd explained my plan to "use the income from my works in order
to climb back onto my feet and build a 'Recovery Center' for others who have also been knocked down by disasters or painful losses..." * 
Then, when he aimed to finish controling the public's view of MY work by also altering other parts of the press release I'd already re-written
for him, I Truly had no fair chance, at all!!!  The public was not being given an honest, accurate account of what I was trying to do.  This SMG
editor treated me so rudely that it left me feeling shocked and baffled and wondering who or what was influencing his actions against me.
Unfortunately he was not the only one who drove against me and my work in Portsmouth, NH. As the man who offered for me to park my
 truck/home in his parking lot (next to his dumpster) and a few members of local networking meetings also behaved in deceptively cruel ways I had a
vision of 'vultures swarming in to pick apart what was left of me. . .'   Unfortunately, this was a very accurate perception of what was happening!!!

As I wonder why so people have aimed to interfered with my work - my life, in the Portsmouth, NH area,  as well as the Keene/Alstead area, . . .
aside from Seeing that there is a lot of darkness/evil controlling our crumbling world, I am beginning to realize that I still have difficulty Seeing behind the
kind masks of those who have cruel intentions;  that people who have been sexually inappropriate or abusive with children can feel severely threatened by
the way I expose the problem of "Child Sexual Abuse";  that those who are wise enough to fully understand my writings often become so jealous or
resentful that they try to tear me down, copy me or take credit for my ideas and wisdom instead of healing their own insecurity problems and finding
their own wisdom and ideas (this is a problem which I have been facing since early childhood, with family, friends and even husband...); 
that those who practice dark or mechanical mind control types of spirituality are often apposed to my focus on "Embracing Feelings" and 
opening our Hearts to God's Light;  that the NH Government officials who were involved in the "Eminent Domain" taking of my beautiful Loudon,
NH home and had threatened me into silence during that grueling process, may still be in such a heartless place of wanting to silence me rather
than finding the Heart to apologize for their wrong doings, although I have not publicly shared that experience;  and that those who do not
understand where I am coming from with my writings sometimes assume that I am just insane or evil. I guess all of this is why I have not succeeded
with my work, although it also validates the desperate NEED for it - for more HEART in our darkening world.


I cry this altered version of previously written song lyrics
due to those who intruded upon my work - my life. . .

My Prayer
by Sharon Rose Poet

God, if I have to work here - if I have to cry,
Please send a little Angel down from the sky,
To give a little comfort. I feel too alone.
I need Your Love here with me until I return Home.
If I must experience these cruelties of Earth plain,
Please cast your Light upon me, so I can feel You again.
I know I have to open to the depths of what I feel,
But only Love from Home can truly help me heal.
Those who could help me, though they try to care,
They can't See, the Star I try to share.
The support I need, where my Soul has been,
Can't be understood here. So I cry. . .once again.
If I must experience these cruelties of Earth plain,
Please cast your Light upon me so I can feel You again.
If I must experience my Work ripped to shreds,
Hold me while I feel this. This pain is what I dread.
If I must hurt for the Heart they have lost
Please hold me as I grieve and pay the painful cost.
If I must experience this darkness on Earth plain,
Please cast your Light upon me, 
Until I can be with. . . You again.


Since the fall of 2004, I had gone without a lot, in order to put out these publications for humanity!!!
They Truly came from the depths of my Heart. And I did not deserve to be treated this way!!!
It all feels too horribly wrong!!! I feel sad for all of us, especially for the karma
these people have called upon themselves.

God, help those who do this to me and my life's work - help them find their Hearts.


***

Sponsorship STILL Needed
If you'd like to sponsor a future printing of Sharon's Bud,
please contact me at 603-801-9763 or through  sharonpoet@gmail.com 
(The back Page of "Sharon's Bud" is available, as well as partial covers on a few books.)
Anyone who'd like to advertise their business while helping me to spread the wings of my mission,
will be eternally appreciated. The profits will help build at least one "Recovery Center". . .



* About the "Recovery Center"

Since 2004 I have aimed to use the profits from my works to build a "Recovery Center" - a place where we can heal our Hearts after experiencing
devastating losses or events in our lives - a place with ongoing support groups and compassionate people to talk to - a place that can hold a Love
like what exists in functional families - a place that I have deeply needed and not ever had, through too many difficulties in my life. I'd originally
thought that people would recognize the need for this and jump up to join me or help through the purchasing my works. But after several years
of hard work I have not even come close to breaking even, let alone turning a profit! And I have had miniscule amounts of support from my fellow
human beings who have often even fought against me! But, I have not given up on my Dream. For now, my "Recovery Center" exists within the lines of 
my writings. And I am now aiming to do what I can on my own, without depending on other people's support, although it is still very welcome.
(At this point. . . new computers, unused land and a large functional RV are deeply needed for my work)

Please help support my mission/work
even if its just with good wishes or through
finding the Heart to not interfere with it.

Thank you.